Friday, November 11, 2011

Will I ever be truly happy?

I don't really understand why, but I hate my life. First off, my mother is 30 years old and she acts really immature all the time, and gets on my last nerves & my father, I know he loves me, but I don't think he's proud of me. I feel that he'd rather me be on the football team like some other members of my family. He always complains abt how I stay on the computer all the time, and how I almost never go out. But I barely have reason ever to go out. No one ever invites me anywhere. And that brings me to school, at school my sister is really popular, and she has a boyfriend and she's had 2 or 3 b4 him (she's 12) While I'm almost 14 and have never once had a girlfriend or been kissed. In school, I have some friends, and most of they hang with me, but they all have other friends besides me, so even I don't expect them to only hang out with me exclusively, why would they want to? I'm a pushover, there's this one "friend" of mine, who kept talking abt he was gonna F**k my sister, and I just stood there and let him, not knowing how to retaliate. Also, I have this one friend who everyone likes, he's on the football team, dudes think he's cool, girls think he's hot, he's funny, and a cool guy to be around, and one time, when he was talking to these two girls, I tried to chime in, but I was kinda just ignored, not by him, but by the girls. This has been going on ever since 6th grade, and I'm in 8th grade now. I hate my life, and I just wish I was a happy and simple as everyone else, and not so dark-minded and complex. Is there any way out of this hell?

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